I prayed for days after i sent email out cos i know , i feel something was wrong. I didnt really want to clarify anything. but i choose to pray.
I waited patiently for today. I begged holy spirit to lead for i dun wan to do anything that is against God. frankly speaking i planned what i want to say . But today wasn't what i expected. I thought we can talk over it at cafe or what. it was amazing how God lead. i dunno how to start but God started it. I thought of leaving this matter aside cos dont want to spoil the mood... but it was brought out. everything that i planned to say I didnt say:) I didnt expect such a impact i had in you.

maybe i just dunno know to bring across the point, and make you so sad over it.

Actually i wasn't good in talking, my mouth wasn't that sweet afterall. many thing meant to be said was unsaid. many thing that wasn't suppose to said was said.. I mean in the past, not today.

I will pray! I will seek Him 1st. I want everytime we meet, everytime we talk Holy spirit will lead me! bring the best out of both of us.

coded from pastor ime akpan " none who does not leave you better after he met you is not worth spending time with. "

I want to be someone who is worth spending time with! the only way is by God way!

lastly, i know what you need from the start and you asked me today I struggled to give you an answer! for serval reasons... but deep in me, I know you are different! I know you are! I know you will put GOd 1st! i believe with prayer you cant go wrong. I believe you will think and know what you want in life though u take time to process. most importantly i believe God take good care of you and you wil do anything for Him.

so there's my decision of the day I trust in you, i will give you my support with prayer. tat's all i promised.

ps: though i can read your silence but i wont know the detail.. so dont keep it up ... just speak up when thing wasn't right k....we can find way to solve together with God.