Giving Grace wasn't that easy afterall.
the Grace You given to me is far too much.
I asked myself.. my God did keep giving grace.. again and again.. to me... but it's too much for me to..do that..
Can human do that too? Was there a limit to it? When to be given? all the time without fail? it is wrong to have any emotion toward someone?? right to be angry or ignore someone? i doubt so!
Giving Grace !? a tough lesson wasn't it?

Why God? I'm about to get back and now I'm hitted down again... why use someone i love so much to hit me again and again ? showing me that overall i was ..... and i hate all that negative thought i had... but i just cant trust again i just cant.... What's lesson are you teaching me, God? God, do you know how terrible i felt? I want to go home now! I dont wish ppl see my red eye n running nose.. I dont wish to talk anyone at this moment. I just want to get that feeling out of me! i want to be joyful ! I want to give Grace like He had!! I WANT!! I know i had receive grace from you too! I know but i cant convince my mind yet!